a little chit chat

"you could go with this, you could go with that"

2012-02-14T13:58:00.001+07:00

I love this video

Everytime I go to a hotel, I really want to try to dance like Walken! :D

infinity

2012-02-06T09:51:00.002+07:00

let me travel around
to the infinity
I can stop, I can stay
wherever I want to be

let me feel the heat
let me see the light
I will move forward
I will move faster

you won't keep up with me
you cannot catch me
around and around
to the infinity

distance may be far
season may change
but you know I will back
to the place where I start

nothing gonna stop me
beside me myself and I

---------------------------------------------------------
inspiration from inorganic chemistry lecture. yeay! :D

metabolic pathway

2012-02-02T19:42:00.000+07:00

I always love biochemistry. Even though I took "Physics" as my major during high school, but I like chemistry and biology! I chose it because there's no "Chemistry" major while "Biology" filled with peers whose willing to take medical at uni.

This semester's biochemistry topics are metabolism and genetics information. I remembered during my high school I need to know every steps on metabolism, all the cycle and what happen during the process. Now, it's getting worst because I need to remember the enzyme and the structural of the substance involves. So scary...

Picture above is human metabolism pathways. So complicated, right? It reminds me of transportation map like MRT in Singapore or underground tube in UK Luckily, I'm not going to learn all of this now. But most of them.

Seeing this, I can't believe that human's metabolism are this complicated. One dysfunction may affect the others and caused bad health. So take care of yourself and always be healthy! :D

Happy Day at #HappyPlay

2012-01-24T15:57:00.002+07:00

Last thursday (January 19th), friends from Indonesia Bermain's volunteers and I came to Rumah Sakit Hasan Sadikin (RSHS) for #HappyPlay session. Arrived at 9 AM, I was lost at RSHS for few minutes since this is my first time visiting the hospital. At the Pediatric Clinic, I saw some children are already joining with us. Others are still looking shyly from outside the playground. But then we tried to interact with them and they finally interested in playing with us while waiting for the doctors.

parents also excited to play along

I got the chance to play with some of the children who mostly around 2-4 years old. I forgot the name of the boardgames (since most of them are in German) but we played stitching, teddy bear puzzle, and more animals involved like crow and monkeys! It's very colorful and kids definitely loved it.

A boy named Zaki was shy at first. But as he played with Anchi and I, he started to grow a smile on his and our face. He's so adorable and tried every game that we offered to him. He still wanted to play with us after visiting the doctor and remained until our #HappyPlay session's over.

the super adorable Zaki

Riri, 3 years old, had a back support because of scoliosis from fractures. She needs to go to the doctor once a week to control her scoliosis. She's afraid with doctors but she forgot about it when she played with us. She cried so hard when she had to leave for control session but then she smile again when we greeted her after it.

Nofal and Petra met at this hospital and became friends. They have the same disease, Leukemia. But they share the same happiness that day. They spent their time here, from playing most of the games until coloring session.

coloring session

Besides, there are 2 kids from children's development center of the hospital who joined us. Fatih and Clarissa. Even though they joined on the last hour of the session, but they seemed really enjoy playing with us.

Its 12:30 PM and we finished our session that day. Until the last minute, kids are still playing with us and their parents. When we started to pack up our stuffs, the playground felt so quiet. No more sounds of laughs from the kids or talks between us and them.

we might feel tired but nothing beats the happiness!

Happiness is very simple to find. A single happiness can really bright up a whole day. Can't wait for another session of #HappyPlay. If you are interested in joining this program, please visit Happy Play's website.

"My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives." - Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Wood)

Jakarta Trip

2012-01-11T22:49:00.001+07:00

I was born and raised in Jakarta. But to be honest, I never get to trip around Jakarta by myself. I love to stay at house and go outside just for books. My adrenaline rush starts just few years ago when I move to Bandung, concluding that the "outside world" is so awesome. So, I decided to give myself a little taste of Jakarta today.

My original plan was just visiting fX to see kinokuniya clearance sale. In the middle of my way using TransBintaro (yep, now I'm a proud frequent member of TransBintaro hahaha), I decided to visit Plaza Senayan as well as Senayan City by foot. This is my first time to visit 3 different malls in one day in Jakarta. I did this many times in Bandung, even 4 malls using angkot :P

The last time I went to fX was in 2009. There are quite changes and renovations here and there. Visited my favourite bakery "Pan-Ya" and bought my favourite Melon Pan and French Toast Sandwich. Going around fX, found some interesting places and shops, really want to stop by but I should moved to other place. But then heavy rain started so I went to Starbucks and have a little sip of Hot Vanilla Latte while reading Haruki Murakami's "Dance Dance Dance". I pronounced that fX's Starbucks will be my next home in Jakarta! Kinokuniya clearance sale has lots of interesting books especially Rachel Ray's but then I have to save up for Galaxy W!

Pan-Ya's Matcha Melon Pan and French Toast Sandwich

Next destination, Plaza Senayan! It was right on time when I arrived there for the Big Clock to open. Truly brought my childhood memories when I always insisted to go to Plaza Senayan just because the Big Clock. Going around again and found out that my favourite resto, "Pacific Diner" is changed into another chinese resto *crying* now where I have to find delicious matcha latte??? :(( Plaza Senayan was packed with office workers since it's lunch time. I decided to had my lunch with something that I cannot find in Bandung.

MOS Burger

I remember the last time I went to Plaza Senayan, I want to try it. But then I just couldn't resist the temptation of Match French Toast. I tried the Yakiniku Rice Burger and it was okay. Not impressed me so much. But at least I try :P

Move on to Senayan City, the air was so humid because of the rain. It was great. My friend once said, "Jakarta looks so sexy when it rains" but maybe for me it's so sexy after the rain :D I went to Senayan City more than PIM, which is something new since usually I prefer PIM than any other malls. The Lego Exhibition was over so I don't know what else to do. Going around the malls, I decided to catch up TransBintaro at 3 PM but the fact was I late for 10 minutes due to heavy rain while waling to Ratu Plaza so I had to wait for another one hour -___-

Oh my dear Jakarta, you never cease to amaze me. Next time, I'll have another daring adventure around Jakarta. Yeay!

merry 2012!

2012-01-01T22:24:00.001+07:00

Today is the first day of 2012!

As usual, I spent my new year's eve with my family. Had a little BBQ but everyone's already sleeping at 10 PM. I was left alone. Watched cable TV and there were "Iron Man 2" and "Inception". While I watched "Inception", there was a message came, saying "Happy New Year". Time sure passed quickly...

No fireworks for this year. It's not fun playing fireworks alone -_-

So I decided to sleep and planned to woke up around 5 AM to see the first sunrise of 2012. But, it turned out to rain so hard so I decided to stay at my room and read my new book. It's Natsume Sōseki's こころ (kokoro). Found at periplus Pondok Indah Mall for 50% discount! Since I still cannot afford Haruki Murakami's 1Q84 (periplus is cheaper than kinokuniya for few thousand rupiahs, but still it's expensive), I buy this book first. I was hoping to see other Murakami's book there (especially at discount section) but I found nothing. I guess I have to ask later. Or I have to buy at kinokuniya (crying).

There goes my new year's eve. What's my resolution? Haven't decided yet but all I know I have to try something new again. Volunteering is what I aim to do again in 2012. All I know is I have to feel grateful with what I have and work hard to achieve what I wish.

Wishing you a wonderful 2012 :)

"Don't say "Oh God, why me?" because God could say "Why not?"" - Pepeng at Stand Up Comedy Show

soft launching "demi ucok" film

2011-12-23T09:56:00.011+07:00

I suppose to go back to Jakarta at 21st of December. But then, I win this...

soft launching "demi ucok" film

This soft launching event marks the first time they play the film, but invitation only. Public release will be around April or May 2012. So I'm pretty lucky, right? :D

The theme of this soft launching is "Layar Tancep". The last time I did this is when I was in primary school. So this kinda bring good memories of mine. The location is near Kebun Binatang Bandung and was the location for "cin(T)a" and this movie as well.

the big screen

On my way to the location, there are lots of mural painting. It's just awesome. At the location, there were tent with lanterns and balloons hanging. I wish I can bring home the balloon hihihi. Lots of artsy stuffs there, like the trash bin, stage props and photo booth!

photo booth

While waiting for bus from Jakarta, they played the "behind-the-scene" of the movie. We also allowed to eat there from many stalls available. Batagor, Siomay, Mie Ayam Bakso, Bubur Ayam, Wedang until Arum Manis! I had 2 portion of Siomay, 1 portion of Bubur Ayam, 2 Arum Manis and Hot Sweet Tea from Ibu-ibu PKK there who's really energetic (and even talking in Sundanese to me hahaha)

Arum Manis!

When Jakarta groups arrived, the place were finally full. Front seats are provided for those who wants to lesehan. I met other winners and have a little talk with them. When the movie starts, we didn't allow to go to the food stalls so I had another pack of Arum Manis during the movie :P

Before the movie starts, the director and the casts (minus Saira Jihan who's in Singapore) talked about their feeling about the movie. I can see that how passions can really drive you to give your best. The cast of A Cun (Sunny Soon) said that he finally realized that his passion is in film industry and the director (Sammaria Simanjuntak) said that always do what you love for those who loves you especially your parent.

front seat and tumbling "demi ucok"

After the movie screening, I got the chance to talk with mbak @ainsianturi, who played as Gloria Sinaga. She's so kind and very funny. She even encouraged us to be one of the co-pro for this movie. So I signed up myself as one of 10.000 co-pro for the movie. It's very interesting because by donating Rp 100.000, your name will be on their poster and you will get customize merchandise. For more info, please visit Demi Ucok's Website and twitter.

the co-pro receipt with mbak @ainsianturi's fierce eyes

I won't provide any spoiler but it's really worth-to-watch movie! If it's possible, I will watch it with my mom. Especially if you have the same condition with Glo, having mother who asked you to get married soon. It's a humble, simple yet interesting story added with lots of laughter. The 4 main characters (Mak Gondut, Glo, A Cun, Niki) are definitely astonishing. Mak Gondut definitely my favorite character with all the unpredictable words from her mouth (on and off screen!).

It's a very interesting and exciting experience. Can't say how much I feel gratitude for this. Don't forget to watch this movie on cinema in 2012! IMADAAAAA~!!

"Don't live following your fear" - Sammaria Simanjuntak

holiday month

2011-12-21T21:31:00.004+07:00

kicking my holiday month with a sip of coffee and a set of knitting tools.

I believe this holiday month will be awesome!

HAPPY HOLIDAY! :D

blue rain

2011-12-17T22:18:00.003+07:00

まだ旅の途中やまぬ嵐果てなき道
生きて心のこの声に従うだけ
声を燃やしながら歌い続け踊り続ける
わたしに降りそそぐ
Blue Rain, Blue Rain

moumoon - blue rain

Bandung Mendung

2011-12-11T17:49:00.003+07:00

Monsoon has arrived in Bandung for quite few months. And it's not only rain, but thunder, windstorm, flood and ice rain as well. It's so scary and I prefer to stay at room. Even the latest Moon Eclipse cannot be seen from Bandung because of the clouds.

But I believe, beside all those scary things, there is beauty behind that. The sky. I guess this month has given me some of the most beautiful sky through the year. Especially when it near Maghrib, around 5-6 PM. The last time I took pictures of this kind of sky was around mid-2010 (link).

Well, photos are taken around my dorm using my (need-to-be-replace) phone. Seems like I need to go around Bandung again before going back to Jakarta :)

Midnight Text

2011-12-03T23:16:00.003+07:00

mom sent this picture.

little bro said, next time I go to Jakarta I should sleep there with him.

just a thought on children and education

2011-11-25T22:45:00.005+07:00

Strolling around facebook and found something interesting.

My aunt who lives in UK was asked by her friend about education system in UK. Is it the same like in Indonesia, where children who wants to enter primary school should be able to read and write?

My cousin is 6 years old. I remember when my aunt told me, her 6th birthday party held in her school auditorium with the theme of "Disco Night" and Lady Gaga's songs are the playlist that day.

But no, that's not the part of the things I want to share :P

My aunt's family always come home for a month around Idul Fitri. Once, both my aunt and my cousin visited their relative. In Indonesia, it's very common to see children bring some kind of luggage as their bag to school, packed with books. Sure, I've done that too when I was in primary school. My cousin was a bit confuse because she and her friends always bring a small backpack, just lunchbox and stationary.

Another concern is, how school set a high standard for children before they enter the school. They should be able to read and write. After entering the school, no more playing time since they have cram school to do.

"Why can't they let children be children?", said my aunt.

Seems too much pressure for kids. They have to meet the standards, or else will be failed at school. Or their parent will start to compare them with other kids (which I hate the most).

Soon, I'll be a mom. Parenting has no school. It's good to know other's experience and story as your experience. Then again, when you become a parent, I believe your instinct will speak itself :)

afternoon tea session

2011-10-29T01:56:00.001+07:00

take a cup of tea
and eat the scone
with the afternoon sky
and my dear old man

let's talk about us

let's talk about the future
but don't talk about the past

please please please

everything is fine

what you think, what you do

everything is fine

Earl Grey, Green Tea or just Jasmine Tea

because you know

I will listen to all your stories

lies or truth

so just talk and stay beside me

will I see you on the next afternoon?

I will bake you more scone

I will make you more tea

so we can spend another afternoon together

Volunteer

2011-10-24T22:14:00.013+07:00

On my birthday, I decided to try lots of new things, especially involve in volunteering. I did some research and I found nothing. But, the offer came unexpected...

INDONESIA BERMAIN

Back in early 2011, an event called "Ganesha Bermain" held in Comlabs ITB. I was participating in it because of Beben and Natsu's company, Agate Studio, became one of the organizer along with Kummara. Surprisingly, I became the third winner and received voucher for board game. There, I met Mas Eko Nugroho and Mbak Kanty from Kummara. I remembered, Mas Eko said that he had an idea to make a big-scale version of Ganesha Bermain in Sabuga. I was smiling at that time, but I knew that it's gonna be awesome.

Found out the news later from Beben about the website and I was super excited! But there were no updates later until on July, Natsu told me about the roadplay. So I came alone, lost in nowhere since angkot had to go around because of road blocks (damn you motorcycle drifting event!), came 10 minutes before the closing but still had the fun by playing confusion (and I declared myself as master of confusion :D) and other board games (AH! and also the food! the food is so tasty :9).

I never opened the website again on during August since I had to work on Orientation Week at campus. Once I opened it, I startled to see that they open Volunteer Recruitment! I immediately signed for it and hoped that I became one of the volunteers.

And my dream came true. A twitter mention came and welcomed me and others as Indonesia Bermain Volunteers. Three volunteer meet-ups were always on my top list on my agenda.

First meet-up, I came so early that I helped making satay combination of sausage, potato and eggplant for BBQ. Yes, eggplant for BBQ. Sounds weird? But we just finished them all! Second meet-up, I got a new nickname "Mpok" since I talked a lot and saving the day by bringing 1 pack of marshmallow (which then declared that in every meet-up there should be at least 1 pack of marshmallow :D). Third meet-up, I was so late that I got only 1 satay. Thanks God someone brought 1 pack of marshmallow so we continued the BBQ and we also BBQ the potatoes. Don't ask about the taste of the potatoes. Please.

Wednesday, in the middle of Biochem Labwork, Mbak Kanty texted and invited me to come to Kummara's office at Sukaluyu. It's Cooking Day at Kummara! Vitri was making Lasagna and I helped her. Another dream came true since I was longing to cook Lasagna from last year (Lesson, Lasagna takes a LONG TIME to cook!). After that, talked a lot with Mas Eko and Kummara Team, Mas Tegil from detikBandung and Beben about Indonesia Bermain. And ended up in this conversation:

Mas Eko: "We need MCs. Do you know anyone who are willing to be MC?"

Me: "Well, I did MC-ing few times..."

Mas Eko: "Good! Welcome to the team! Please find another MCs cause we need it."

And I ended up MC-ing with my partner-in-crime, Anchi :D

MCs are at your service! :D - credits of duniaku.net

I was asked to come to Indonesia Bermain's Press Conference. Beside about Indonesia Bermain contents, I learned a lot about media and Public Relations. It was a huge lesson and I will always remember about it. Media are tricky... But the foods are superb!

A day before Indonesia Bermain, went to Sabuga and started to see that stands are on the way, the dock was done, the chairs were ready. Briefing with Mas Eko and Anggra made me quite nervous since Mayor of Bandung and Vice-Governor of West Java will be visiting on first day. I can't sleep properly that night. Too many things to think about.

There are no words can explained enough how I feel about two days of Indonesia Bermain. I could spread happiness through my voice, giving information (conference, tournament, lost and found until child missing-in-action) and saw the crowds are happy and satisfied. Smile is everywhere. Working with best team ever even though we had to sneak around to be able to play at the booth, hectic because too many announcements waiting and then there were some changes when it is announce, made an open war with another MC at other booth just to announced something until picking up tickets left on the floor to redeem the Tango Voucher (what a shame...). There were lots of kids (especially on day 2), and I wished that my little brother were there too...

I hold my tears back when I announced the closing with a big smile. It's been a very moving experience this 4 weeks and I can't believe it's over. Thank you is just not enough to everyone that involved in this event. I met lots of amazing, passionate and inspiring people from the committee and volunteer. I finally realized and experienced how powerful playing and happiness are and you just cannot hold it by yourself. You have to share it with everyone else.

Till we meet again, at Indonesia Bermain 2012 :)

Main Stage Team - ♥

just one day after and we already miss it :''''')

On This Day In...

2011-08-18T21:52:00.005+07:00

kuliah perdana di hari ulang tahun. nice.

now I'm officially 19~ thank you everyone for the wishes! :) :)

Age is just a number. Turning 20 means God has given me another chance to learn. This year's birthday feels so different. Less facebook's wall (read:NONE!), less twitter mention. I think this is the right time for me to learn to be a wiser person.

Now I'm 20. I have to try a lot of new stuffs! This is really a new beginning for me.

I'm 20! Gotta say it proud and loud :D

Surprise! Birthday Cake from @aaalfi, @caesarsonny and @alif_sussardi :)

Pattern

2011-05-23T01:37:00.004+07:00

I just realized that each little thing that we do in our everyday life is a constant pattern of what we learned in our childhood. Nothing new to how we approach our facts everyday, until we realized them and decide to create a new pattern to follow.

For example, I've always wanted people to talk to me about anything, to communicate with me on things, I love discussions. and one day I realized that it's the one thing I desired the most upon growing up.

Unfortunately, not many people realized it, or want to change it for the better. Well, people are reluctant to change, it's natural. But this is what differentiate a wise from a lazy, a successful person from a mediocre.

taken from my ultimate cousin's FB notes. thank you so much, Tika :)

another update?

2011-05-23T01:22:00.003+07:00

maybe this blog will be abandon for another semester due to lab activities *sigh*

it's 2 months ago after my last post and actually I'm in between my study time but I guess I'm not in the mood...

life's been change. and it's always be.

this semester I really learn about how one comment from a person can change a whole lot of perspectives toward another. I remember there's a time where I heard lot of rumours here and there about a person then next time about the other.

it's not easy to not getting into it when people surround you will always talking about it. it's hard just to move away and not to hear anything, pretend that you don't know anything. how people think it's impossible to be able in both sides, becoming the neutral side.

you try not to change when people change, and they say that you've changed and they're not.

finally updating

2011-03-27T01:14:00.002+07:00

someone is waiting for me to update this blog :P

anyway, I don't know why I started to become a wiser person. I never thought that conflicts happened in my life a lot. that makes me think carefully on what I'm going to say. I never want to hurt people's feeling and that's one of my weakness. being frontal is not my thing (even though one of my friend said that "being frontal is wonderful"). but it really does help me in practicing my patience. :)

introducing another blog of mine:

http://pepafoodtravelogue.wordpress.com

it's such a random blog about me and panda's adventure on food hehe. please enjoy it :)

20-11

2011-01-10T21:08:00.003+07:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! actually want to write it yesterday but forgot and too tired hehe.

I celebrated my new year eve with my family and it was really fun. we did BBQ-ing and saw fireworks. and I managed to take a picture of the last sunset of 2010!

beautiful sunset :)

too bad I woke up late so I couldn't take a picture of the first sunrise of 2011 :(

so, the great thing happen so far is Bandung is not that rainy anymore! though that I love rain, but we do need a break from a long period of rain in 2010. during the day in Bandung, me and my dear panda had a long trip to various places. I finally went to Bandung Zoo (and can't wait to go there again!) and also visited Gasibu Sunday Market. dimas once offered me to go to Punclut Sunday Market and I really eager to go there but we need to get there early in the morning. since I have trouble in wake up early, so I guess there will be a time for it :D I guess it really nice to have dates with your loved one NOT to the mall. sometimes it is really boring :-/ beside, it brings a lot of new experience and excitement as well.

hopefully 2011 will bring a lot of fun and joy like 2010.
big love :)

before leaving Bandung

2010-12-26T23:09:00.004+07:00

2010 has been an unlimited ride of roller-coaster.

just like what I wrote on January, my resolution this year was

"My 2010 resolution: fully experiencing every moment & process, AND letting go all expected final results. And enjoying it to the fullest!"

and I guess that's what I really did. looking back on my old post throughout the year, I'm not wasting anything! I had my up-and-down moments and learned a lot. though I should shed tears or laughed till my head off, but I never regret anything.

now, I believe I can face 2011 better. I know that there are people who support and love me and I will give them the same thing :)

craving this!

2010-12-03T00:14:00.000+07:00

courtesy of http://tfyogurt.net/

quick update for my 50th post!

2010-11-11T00:59:00.002+07:00

so, after my last post, I've been facing the real world.

lots to do, to arrange, to solve, to deal with.

if I can make a rough calculation, there will be 3 more months of hectic and busy. I should've put a big planner on my forehead so I won't forget each of my plan. geez...

in my second year, I realized that I want to be more active in every organization I joined in. my student association AMISCA also both of my unit Kendo and UKJ. beside, I also become parts of event held in my campus. like Olimpiade ITB on December or the previous INKM 2010. that's a weird thing since I used to avoid to be too busy with those things.

perhaps, I seek more experience.
experience that gives me lessons.
lessons to be a better person.
lessons to be a wiser person.

argh~ I need inspiration =____=

life in chemistry

2010-10-04T17:21:00.003+07:00

it's my 3rd month in chemistry major. dealing with 2 days of lab practice and it means I'm taking 34 credits this semester.

freak.

trying to hold on with both my study life and daily life. the only entertainment is internet (and sometimes TV but not as good as internet though >:D). thanks God that I have my friends and especially my dear panda for being there with me :)

I need to fix few things inside me. still lazy to take care of myself and having problems with priority. really need to fix it soon...

time to sign out. got a lot of papers to do.
cheers :D

summer

2010-07-12T18:56:00.002+07:00

I need summer :(

#nowplaying

2010-07-01T20:03:00.001+07:00

One Less Bell To Answer/A House Is Not A Home - Glee Casts

One less bell to answer
One less egg to fry
One less man to pick up after
I should be happy
But all I do is cry

*pop*

isn't it so true?

2010-06-17T22:32:00.002+07:00

"Leo best discipline seems to come from suffering, loss, and sickness, through which they learn of deception and passion." - @ZodiacFacts

smile

2010-05-21T10:23:00.004+07:00

you're seem wondering every time I smile when I'm looking at you
when you ask me,
"what's wrong?"
I just shake my head and give you another smile
leaving you with another question mark

I smile because I like you
when you smile back at me
or just give me small pats
I feel comfortable with you

or when you looking at me
asking me,
"are you alright? tired?"
I feel grateful to have you

hope that our smile never fade away :)

project (?)

2010-05-14T01:37:00.003+07:00

first of all, happy final test for all ITB students. especially for all TPB who will be dealing with calculus in a matter of hours (excepet FSRD >__>). good luck! ganbatte! vielen dank!

so during my hectic hours of calculus, I came up with an idea. I wish I can complete this project before the O-week (since I want to be a part of ITB's O-week or they call it as OSKM). what will be the project? just wait and see :D

clue: something related with my future major :)

busy bee

2010-05-03T20:12:00.003+07:00

I miss being a busy bee in high school...

not to mention that I'm not a busy bee right now with all the tasks and mid-tests. but I miss being in an event like I always did. I realize that I involved in YOCCHIKOI! and almost collapsed after it. but I miss small-scale events.

I remember MADFFEST (Madania Film Festival). I wasn't the committee at first but ms. zarisha dragged me to help her as second secretary (I consider myself as a volunteer, though). it just an event for jakarta and bogor scale with a total of 11 films. the next thing I know is I didn't work as a secretary anymore. I sent the proposal, promoted the event, helped the decoration. and even until the D-Day, I worked as a MC also a runner and technician as well. only 150 guests but we're so happy yet exhausted at that moment.

I missed CIVED film session. that's the first time I'm being a time-keeper. I worked again as a technician since we had several problems with the laptop and the film itself. this time, it involved all the high school students and we had to arrange them in 4 different classrooms. there was one class who had the most problem among the others. the AC is broken, the laptop was restart for several times, the film was played not in their order. it's fun although I didn't watch the movie. I stayed outside to maintain the time and to be ready if there's some technical problems along.

I wanted to be a part of ASEC (ASEAN Science Entrepreneurship Challenge) selection again. seeing juniors doing their best in order to be school representatives for ASEC in Indonesia. seeing their potential become a part to make a better world. it just made me proud when my favorite candidate (with his teammate) won the ASEC and become representative for Indonesia in GEC (Global Enterprise Challenge) and they even won the first place, beating teams from 15 different countries around the world. I was so envy at that time since I never been in an international competition before but I congratulated him and his teammate for their hard work.

but I guess, all those things are meant to be remember. I should've been grateful for what I have right now :)

conspiracy

2010-04-29T22:19:00.005+07:00

now I've completed my promise...

I felt that this world has set this conspiracy to me. after I fulfilled my promise (not really just one more thing), somehow God helps me revealing the facts from the most unexpected persons. We never been really close yet one day one of them contacted me just to ask what happen to me after the February incident.

it's a shame to admit that the last tear I shed happened 2 weeks ago. for the same thing over and over again. I felt so weak and the last thing she said to me was "you will have someone that you can live with and I know he will be the best for you..."

this conspiracy, I believe, to make me stronger. I know that I can put the past into a box and keep it for the rest of my life. but the only thing important to me now is to find someone that I can share with and to be able to fully experience life together. still a long way to go, but I will never stop hoping.

even though hoping sometime means being selfish...

Perahu Kertas

2010-04-19T22:10:00.002+07:00

"Hati tidak pernah memilih. Hati dipilih. Ia selalu tahu kemana harus berlabuh."

thank you Dee :)

it's true

2010-03-18T17:30:00.002+07:00

the fighting scene

2010-03-09T20:15:00.002+07:00

I wonder if anyone once feel the same thing as me.

it's been a tough month for me. saying goodbye with someone you've once loved. making decision out of difficult choices. ups and downs.

I'm trying to experience this life. even tears must falling down. even I must lose. even I have to sacrifice for someone. just to know how tough I can be...

and this fighting scene will always continue.
new pages or new chapters, I don't mind. just give me more papers to write the rest of the stories :)

living in bubble

2010-02-02T00:33:00.006+07:00

just had a chat with one of my friend (initial Z. just call him Zami :D). he once said to me that we all have bubble surrounds us..

bubble of comfort zone, you may say. but I believe we all have different definitions for it.

for me, this bubble is some kind of "fragile zone". those who really understand can see and pass this bubble without make it explode. this bubble also works as my "mask" to several people. to feel safe, I suppose. this bubble can work for a person in a time or lots of them..

once this bubble explode, it would be hard to blow it out again. it can pop anytime before it finished. thus, once a person did that, he shall lose my respect. no mercy at all.

so now one of my bubble had popped. he tried to pass but he failed. then again, another bubble had done. I made it small and lots of it, filled with madness and disappointment. the next thing is to fly this bubble everywhere. so that I won't feel it again...

23/02

2010-01-16T00:39:00.002+07:00

I wish I can hug you right now
and tell you that I love you
because even though we are oceans apart
our love will keep us together
and I will wait until that day
where I can be back in your arms again
till that time come, I will only say ' see you later'
I will not say goodbye
because I'll meet you later

2010

2010-01-09T09:51:00.005+07:00

greetings everyone :)
though it's too late but want to say "happy new year 2010 :)"

2009 is absolutely a wonderful year. up and down, love and hate, thank you all.. I can't wait for what's going to happen in 2010. beyond excited! I'm so lucky to have lots of good friends around me. teehee :D

what about new year resolution? quoting from Reza Gunawan,

"My 2010 resolution: fully experiencing every moment & process, AND letting go all expected final results. And enjoying it to the fullest!"

well, this might be the best resolution I made (or quote?) ever hahaha..

for this holiday, I'm sooo being a lazy bum. I love to stay on my bed and then roll randomly hahaha. this is really a new habit for me after few months living in bandung. I think I need a big teddy bear as a friend to hug when I'm rolling ;p last night just had a DVD party all by me self. watched 2 DVDs and it's all "menye-menye" movies. one of them is my all-time favorite movie. "Serendipity" :). I still have holiday until I go back to bandung around 20-ish and start preparing everything (including MYSELF!) for semester 2.

so hopefully all of you will experience a great 2010 (and so do I).
happy holiday!
love :)

dare to ask?

2009-12-28T14:48:00.004+07:00

http://www.formspring.me/shandriasti

devastated, crushed

2009-12-21T23:15:00.004+07:00

is it enough
what you have done to her
you hurled her to the land
after flying up so high

you've changed
she knows you do
don't be so obdurate
denying the facts

you make it even worst for her
she just can't believe it

she's crushed
she's so devastated
she's irritated
she's lifeless

you took her
you're gone with the sunset
you left her body in pieces
she's incomplete

you never know what it feels to be her
you never know...

scandal

2009-12-19T11:52:00.006+07:00

WARNING: the post you will read is in bahasa indonesia

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skandal...
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apa itu skandal? skandal jepit? sepatu skandal? atau binatang temennya buaya?

menurut Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia (KBBI),

skan·dal n perbuatan yg memalukan; perbuatan yg menurunkan martabat seseorang

akhir-akhir ini merasa digosipin dan ter"skandal"kan. awalnya karena ada 2 foto berdua sama senpai yang berbeda. fotonya diambil saat makrab kendo.

fotonya emangnya gimana?

biasa aja ah. yang satu lagi ngobrol bareng. berdiri pula. yang satu cuman duduk sebelahan terus berpose biasa aja..

terus kok bisa jadi skandal?

hahaha itu sih iseng aja kerjaan senpai kendo. bales dendam katanya lol hehehe.

tapi kalau menurut konotasi arti kata skandal sendiri, foto-foto tersebut nggak bikin aku malu. ntah ya para senpai malu atau nggak :P :P

well, quoting from Jason Mraz,
"It's all about the word play" :P

hyperballad

2009-11-12T20:38:00.002+07:00

It’s real early morning
No-one is awake
I’m back at my cliff
Still throwing things off

I listen to the sounds they make
On their way down
I follow with my eyes ’til they crash
Imagine what my body would sound like

Slamming against those rocks
When it lands
Will my eyes
Be closed or open?

Hyperballad - Bjork

my other half :)

2009-11-05T00:28:00.005+07:00

how can I survive without you? :)

the tigers in the sky

2009-10-27T19:31:00.004+07:00

I saw three tigers in the sky.
battling for each other.
I don't know what they're battling for.
but all I know their eyes are filled with rage.
trying to beat each other.

one-by-one gone.
leaving the sky by wagging their tail.

now I should stop staring at the sky.
get up and back to my routine.

autumn dream

2009-10-19T09:47:00.005+07:00

I miss the autumn leaves
the wind breeze and the clear blue sky

suddenly I dreamed of you

why?

a bit of memories :)

2009-10-17T08:12:00.005+07:00

meet 78. my group during the university orientation week. spent my first week with them is just a splendor moment. we barely knew each other for a week but then we realized that we all have this common thing that make us one :)

I <3 78

rainy days

2009-10-14T19:01:00.004+07:00

the beginning of rainy season...

also the beginning of mid-test season...

I'm pretty afraid of my mid-test since I often make silly mistakes. it is already proven in my calculus test :( especially this week is physics which really is my Achilles' Heel :'( my senior once said that it is better to have a good score in mid-test because the questions will be getting harder..

bandung is freaking cold. I need to wear my jacket or sweater + scarf to go to campus. but when it comes to daylight, it's hot but it's kinda windy.. rain is pretty often pouring down. now I have umbrella in my backpack so I won't get wet again xD

will be writing soon when I'm better.. maybe.. I'm having sort of mood-swings these several weeks.. is it because of rain? mellowing every moments?

hopefully I will be just fine :) :)

good to be back

2009-09-28T09:20:00.004+07:00

If I were you, I wouldn't be here
If I were you I would stay right where you are
I wouldn't come near this broken heart
Just turn around and leave here
And find someone who won't hurt you
Make sure that she still believes in love
Cause I think my heart has given up
If I were you, I wouldn't be here
(Tamia - If I Were You)

now I'm back to bandung. there are sort of mix emotions when I arrived. then I felt very grateful to be able to have a chance of being with my dear friends. even though I haven't done all of my assignments but most of them are done.

another lesson I get from this holiday (not to mention the lesson from Ramadhan month :P) that do whatever you want to do as long as you enjoy it. without any interference from anyone. as long as you believe that it it good for you and can give you benefit. now, I want to deeper my Kendo and also make DnD bandung gaming group stronger :)

"Life goes on within you and without you" - The Beatles

few first day in Jakarta

2009-09-14T22:14:00.000+07:00

this is my 3rd day in Jakarta and I'm so happy! though Jakarta is a lot hotter than Bandung, but still very grateful to be able to meet my family especially my little brother.

this week is the last week of Ramadhan. I don't think I haven't made good deeds :( but hopefully this month will give me more lessons so I can be a better person in the fitire :)

still 11 days to go before I go back to Bandung...

jakarta in a minute

2009-09-12T10:07:00.003+07:00

I will be heading back to Jakarta today.

there are few things that I miss about in Jakarta:
- family and my house, of course
- schoolmates, definitely
- PIM and its starbucks, just like my second house (ciwalk is my second house at bandung :p)
- Fantasy and Games and the people there (also pak toni's perkedel!), just like my own family
- its sunny and hot weather, so hard to find it here in bandung

I will stay there for about 2 weeks, celebrating Lebaran with my family and my great grandma. yippey!

lastly, happy Lebaran to all who celebrate it. hopes you all have a marvelous holiday :)

first thing first

2009-08-22T09:40:00.004+07:00

Happy Ramadhan all! so grateful to be able to meet Ramadhan again :)

this is the first time to have my Ramadhan alone. hehehe. what's for sahur today? it's POP MIE GORENG! I'm too lazy to cook rice so I decided to start making it today so I can eat it for break and sahur. since my mom had already brought me few dry food such as abon, kering tempe, etc. I don't need to go out anymore hehe. I think I need to supply some card-box milk in my refrigerator..

this is the first time to have my Kendo practice. YATTA! finally trying some Kendo exercise even though only for 1 hour hehe. the next practice will be held on monday and friday every 5 P.M. but eventually on monday I have lab practice until 5.30 P.M. I will do my best! :D

once again, happy Ramadhan :)

deepest condolences

2009-07-17T18:30:00.003+07:00

my heart goes out to all the victim of Ritz-Carlton and JW Mariott hotel bombing.

hope God will give us blessing in His protection.
let's united as one.
speak up and stand up for Indonesia!

I love Indonesia.
I love my country.
no matter what.
this is where I born, live and stand.
until now :)

photos from: http://www.kaskus.us

her love filled the room

2009-07-10T23:23:00.005+07:00

MOVING SOON..

title: h o l i d a y

2009-06-30T21:18:00.008+07:00

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removing some stuffs in here...
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so actually I already begin my holiday. went everywhere with my yaris, packed my stuffs for bandung, had some quality time with friends.

yesterday, I met my friend, zami from jogja. finally. we met at sushi tei senayan city along with cupie and zami's friends. one of zami's friend shared the same name with me (but he's a he!) and another one went to the same school with my junior high friends. much fun, really.. can't wait for another sushi party time. weehee~!

holiday doesn't mean that you're going to have fun every time. there will be a time where yesterday you drove a mercedes then today you really want to bump your head to the wall. or maybe you will feel so bored with all your DVDs and you want to watch movies but no one can accompany you. I screwed few times but it won't distract my holiday..

wishing you a happy and joyous holiday :) :)

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UPDATED:

three "sushi tei" musketeers :D

Foi bom encontrar voce

2009-06-28T15:02:00.006+07:00

Terlomparty 09.

a farewell party and prom night for terlomparte.

I love my terlomparte. each one of you. whoever you are. friends, enemies, frienemies. you just made my life even wonderful and precious.

I've known you for 6 years. yes, we started our junior high together and now we graduated together. how good life can be :)

I love how we spent our last night together. taking pictures, saying good luck, apologizing for what we did. looking back our high school time through photo slide show. what a wonderful life we had...

thank you guys. thank you terlomparte. friendship forever. I'll be missing you and our high school :')

Post-It Love

2009-06-25T19:22:00.001+07:00

a cute short movie. maybe I want to make a card with emoticon's using post-it! haha

endless gratitude

2009-06-14T23:35:00.002+07:00

my next destination:

:) :) :)

late night prayer

2009-06-09T00:31:00.003+07:00

dear God,
this is my late night prayer.

thank you for all things you have given to me. to my family and to my friends. all the happiness and joy we had. all the pain and suffers that made us stronger.

my friends and I will entering a new phase of our life. this is going to be hard, oh God. but please keep our faith strong so we can still in the right track. so we can pursue all dreams that we always write and remember.

dear God,
today is my baby bro's birthday. please give him strength to face life. hope he will grow up as a brave and smart little boy who always have heart for each other.

once again, thank you for all the gift. I am very graceful that I can still alive until now...

ASEC selection

2009-05-15T22:50:00.003+07:00

I'm really so into this competition. too bad at the same time I have USM-ITB Terpusat and teachers said that I should give this opportunity to my junior.

ASEC or ASEAN Science Engineering Challenge is a competition based on Global Engineering Challenge. last year, Indonesia had sent one team to compete but didn't win. It's a competition to make a product, plan or service that using science concept (especially physics) which has economic value. they must make the prototype of the product, business plan and presentation about their product.

since I cannot made it this year, I was chosen to be one of the judges, selecting 3 students that will represents my school. lots of students applying for joining this competition, total of 40 something from 10 and 11 graders.

first round was held yesterday to choose 15 students for the next preliminary round. they are divided into 9 different groups consist of 6 students. their first challenge is to make a system that can make school's MPH cooler. I judged team 4 - 6 which quite creative but anyway we scored them individually. the results, we didn't get 15 but we get 18 students haha..

the last preliminary round is today. those 18 students divided again to 3 teams with task of making a small-scale generator with alternative energy. 2 teams using magnet while the other team use jarak oil. from each group, we take 1 student to represent madania.

it's a tough job though but I love it. there is 1 candidate that I like from the first time I saw him spoken his idea. and fortunately, he made it to the top 3! weehee! I wish that I can join ASEC next year when I enter college. amin..

goodluck juniors!

afraid

2009-05-13T00:43:00.002+07:00

just had 4 hours of sleep and had a nightmare..

and I'm too afraid to get into my bed again. it made me sad.

hope it won't happen to me...

sangkuriang practice

2009-05-03T18:54:00.006+07:00

today, my groups did a practice on our drama based on a super-duper famous sundanese folklore, Sangkuriang.

we all gathered around 11 a.m. at Pyy's house. Risty couldn't come along for UI Inter test of psychology major. so only 7 of us. 4 girls, 3 boys.

the first team to arrive!

the unusual things from this drama are we have to use english for the dialogs but we have to put 2 sundanese songs and 2 sundanese pantun in it. quite hard, really. a 30 minutes drama, with 4 scenes.

we started our practice at 12 after eating otak-otak and pizza. we did reading first for about one and a half hour then we tried with some blocking here and there for the rest half an hour. then we have a tasty lunch together. then we continued practicing.

the clock showed at 3 o'clock. 6 of us taking the same taxi (yes, imagine. 1 blue taxi for 6 people), going to PIM 2. arrived in PIM 2, we all separated. I walked with my 2 friends, Bian and Hisyam, went to gramedia to buy children folklore books for bahasa indonesia practical test. but before that, I went to Heaven Blush with Bian since I want HB so much while Hisyam went to the ATM. but the queuing really turned me down so I decided to go to gramedia. they choose the book while I'm looking at some new books including Sitta Karina's "Titanium". then we moved on to few toys shop there to find dog mask but none of them sell it.

we're walking nowhere. Hisyam went to music store and that's my (and Bian's) first time to go inside a music store. lool. then Bian asked me whether I want to go to HB again or not. of course I waant!! then we moved on to HB and luckily I don't have to queue that long again. Hisyam took a seat, order whatever according to me hahaha. this is Bian's first time to be in HB so he didn't know what to do. he tried the peach one but he's said it's too sour. well, it's yoghurt, you still can sense the sour part there. I ordered my fave combo, pome with longan and nata de coco. Bian ordered pome with mochi and kiwi and so did Hisyam. Hisyam likes the combo but he thinked the mochi is too sweet while Bian still thinks that the yoghurt is too sour. that's why I shared my nata de coco with him.

after fulfilled our stomach, we're separated again. I went to sogo supermarket to buy household stuffs and also B&R's vanilla ice cream. actually I only want the DRY ICE but why not buying yourself (and your family) a half litre of ice cream :P

hopefully we can get a good score!

CHEERS!

it is done

2009-04-24T12:34:00.005+07:00

weehee UN is done. I'm so relieve that it means I need several steps more to be able to graduate from high school :)

today was fun. my friend was asleep during the test. he even SNORE! the observer was so amazed with him. he slept two times, today and the first (or second?) day of the test. hahaha. after the test, I talked to my EL teacher about the result of UN EL using her prediction answer and she said,

"all of you got EL score waay better than your bahasa score. so why do you need an EL teacher?"

hahaha. my EL teacher is so funny. we talked a lot, exchanging stories about our boyfriend. what an unusual topic to talk with your teacher.

and so we took photos together. me, my friends, my EL teacher and my headmaster :D

national exam

2009-04-19T21:29:00.005+07:00

wow. few hours before national exam.

how do I feel? anxious? depressed? excited? nervous?

well, never mind.
I'm feeling quite okay for tomorrow. biology and bahasa indonesia seemed to be an unique combination.

this is the first time UN held for 5 days. which means the next 4 days only 1 subject per day. at least I can study physics and math in different time. hopefully I will get good score for all subject.

looking back 1 - 2 weeks before national exam, I'm so often reading those small books that compile all the materials from grade 10 - 12. then again, I think that those books are not that complete. I mean, if you want to really learn from the exam material given from Depdiknas, still, you need to make your own. but I'm too lazy. lol. actually you can make money from it. you can make it for next year national exam based on the exam material given. smart eh?

and now I'm having flu. AARGGHH. this is something baad. I wish I can bring my tissue roll to class or I'll end up sneezing everywhere. and that's not good.

a little gift

2009-04-15T20:37:00.005+07:00

when I arrived from school today, I saw a package on my table. a brown envelope covered with plastic. written there my name and the sender.

a week

2009-04-13T20:15:00.006+07:00

a week before national exam. but I'm so lazy to study. oh Lord forgive me. physics and math are my Achilles' heel. I usually learn for 1 - 1 1/2 hour per day for those 2 subjects. but then my brother messed up everything and I lose my motivation.

since I'm back because of a freaking and super annoying disease named MUMPS, I need to eat a looot. I can't eat while having those mumps that's why I need more nutritions supply. for dinner today, I had tuna salad (which very tasty but the sauce was yuck) and spicy chicken BBQ pizza with extra mozarella. nyumm..

I need to study again. Einstein Postulate and Alkali Earth Metal, wait for meee :D

Books Actually

2009-04-09T21:31:00.006+07:00

a lovely little bookstore named Books Actually, located in Singapore!

Books Actually sells handmade notebooks! limited edition of 300 edition and it's sooo lovely. not only that, they also sells postcards and stationaries. all handmade! how lovely is thaat!

drey has one of these. so envy.

Books Actually sells lomo, movies and books. they also often make event such as book launching etc.

Books Actually really inspired me to make a cute little shop like this. making my own notebooks with reasonable price and limited! I need to find a second typewriter, paper factory for the paper and stencil for the picture. maybe not the same like that. but more of inspired. just feel want to make it when I'm in college.

failed

2009-04-08T20:15:00.004+07:00

both SIMAK and USM.

quite down, especially for USM ITB. I expected quite big to become one of ITB student. I first not cried when I saw it. just take a deep breath and told my friends. most of them are failed but glad my best friend passed it :)

then I know ITB really wait me there. written there, in the end of the paragraph.

Berdasarkan hasil ujian PMBP-ITB 2009 di Daerah, pada PMBP-ITB 2009 Terpusat 2009, anda berpeluang untuk diterima di salah satu Fakultas/Sekolah berikut : FITB, FMIPA, SITH, SAPPK.

Bila anda mampu meningkatkan prestasi, pada PMBP-ITB 2009 Terpusat 2009, anda berpeluang untuk diterima di salah satu Fakultas/Sekolah berikut : FTTM.

somehow, my heart started to feel warmer. I feel really glad that actually I can pass this freaking test. My chosen school just set too bar too high for me :P

may is going to come. the second usm will be held in bandung. wait me there o dear Ganesha :D

crazier

2009-02-05T21:19:00.003+07:00

this is the 5th week in the semester 2 and I feel intimidate. grawl. it's getting harder everyday. lots of task and quizzes for UN preparation. moreover, for SIMAK and USM preparation is getting heller everyday.

I feel my brain is going to crash.

soon.

bu dini

2009-02-01T10:49:00.003+07:00

my deepest condolence to my former EL teacher and base teacher, Bu Dini Bachtiar. her husband passed away this morning because of stroke.

Bu Dini had been a great teacher during my 10th grade. she's so supportive and always gave us smile everyday. our class, 10 D, became the most solid class.

her little angel named Naia. it is based from 10D's girls last name. she's sooo chubby and adorable. the last time I saw her is when Bu Dini came to our school along with her.

I remember, when she gave birth, all the girls came to the hospital to met her. there was a man, young man, that we thought it's bu Dini's brother. buut it was her husband. and when we knew, we just giggling to each other.

I want to come today but unfortunately I'm alone in my house. Naren decided to come today with her mom. I already sent a concolescence sms early in the morning. but still, I want to meet her, hug her and say that she's strong and God have He's own plan to us. hope that this is the best plan for her and her family.

once again, I'm sorry bu Dini :(

damn

2009-01-26T21:11:00.002+07:00

still working on my AE 4 *sigh*

during my 12 grade life, I never get a chance to experience deep sleep. where I can relaxing my mind, sleeping without thinking about any single thing. there always one tiny thing that stick on my brain. every time I wake up, I always feel tired. always sleepy again. though I sleep like 8 hours a day, it won't work.

it reminds me of what my bahasa teacher said to me that I always think about small stuffs that will lead to bigger stuffs. and it is. there almost no hole in my brain, it keeps full about everything. from important to random stuffs. no empty space.

and somehow yesterday I watched Mario Teguh's Golden Ways. I'm quite sleepy when I watched this show, about 20 minutes before this show over. he stated something, which made me awake and think it a whoole day.
"cause things that fulfill in your brain, things that you think, are not something that you do"

which for me, this statement was like a golden ticket. a wake up call. a spark of firework in new year eve. it's the reason of those things. for sure.

there there, I need to concentrate my brain. really strive for UAN!

miss them :'(

2009-01-26T13:07:00.002+07:00

started from this week, I will move to IPA 2. with 4 other girls and 3 other boys from IPA 1. damn.

well, I'm going to miss IPA 1 like a looot. miss previous 6 months I spent with them. hiks. hopefully I don't have to adjust myself again with my new class. for sure, I will miss IPA 1's atmosphere. all the craziness and hectics during study time or laughter during volley time.

oh well, today is chinese new year and I'm stuck working on my works. assessment event and drilling. this week is biology week so I need to work on my biology drilling.

got to pass UI and ITB!

welcome speech

2009-01-05T14:31:00.001+07:00

hello there.

so this is actually my... ehm.. 4th blog and my 3rd blog in blogspot. I will wandering around the blog without abandon my multiply page hehe..

cheeeerrss :D
ranea d.